Tenger Mongol Gazar 8

...Since that day, different universe had opened its door to me and I am still struggling to learn and understand about it. I had no idea how sacred was the bloodline for a person. Because I grew up with only one grandmother and barely knew the other one. About grandfathers, I had no idea who they were. Out of somewhere, many unknown spirits, whose names were only on history textbooks, had come out and declared themselves to be my ancestors. And I tried my best to follow what they told me to do. Suddenly, one day, another spirit came to me and asked “Who is your Great Khaan of Mongols?”. When I answered his name was “Chinggis Khaan”, that spirit told me “then I am that Khaan. From now on, I will be your second head spirit”. With great awe. I asked him “then what should I prepare to welcome you? What kind of throne do you want?”. To my surprise, he simply told me that “I am not here to eat and drink, or to enjoy your admiration. But I am back to deliver the will of Tenger”.

I think such time will come to the history of mankind. Everybody has to feel and accept the Tenger, the Truth, the real son of Tenger, and his immeasurable power. Who is the real owner of the earth? Is it human beings? NO. Those whoever breaks the divine law of nature, will face the rightful judgement of heaven. Others who follow the path shown by Tenger will deserve the merit. Since I become a host for Great Khaan's spirit, my whole life had been changed 180 degrees. He taught me totally different ethics, moral values and disciplines. What he did was exact opposite of what I imagined about shamans earlier. He ordered me to throw out all vodkas and “hadag”(piece of long linen, usually blue ones are used in Mongolia)s. He taught me how to consult with Tenger, Sun, Moon, Stars, King of Hell, King of Mountains and Naga King in order to solve the big deals. All other rules and regulations I have heard and seen related with other shamans were not there, they were not applicable to me. I was allowed to touch red meat and others, I was not required to do the Mountain rituals etc. And all these things have made me to realise what the word “Khaan” (King) means. Khaan title is given to those special ones who can do everything on his own, who can lead others by his own example, but it does not mean to have authority to employ others and treat them badly. I am really pampered by this special right and thankful to our Khaan for making me his host, the special shaman, not an ordinary shaman. Only through his presence, now I have special power and title granted by Tenger, which equals to the one of King, and have no restrictions except a few.

Since I am a new shaman, who was initiated a few months ago, I had many chances to witness the extraordinary power of great spirits and I sincerely appreciate and respect my Ancestors and the Will of Tenger. I know without their help, my physical body is simply not able to perform such tasks. Despite of their immense wisdom and power, they always remind me to be humble. I learn how to behave properly from my Khaan. As days pass, I realise what a great (heavy) responsibility was given to me by Tenger and by my ancestors. I am the main responsible person to carry out their heritage and tasks.

There is a saying that “Shaman's summons are varied just as rabbits jump in different lengths” and I realise how true is this. Every human being have distinct characters and interests, and similarly, every clans and tribes have their own traditions and values. Since my son became a shaman, I started reading about the shamanic traditions. Even I demanded my son to read and learn from those books. When he ignored my request to memorise some chanting verses, I told about it to his master. The response from the master astonished me. He said there is no need to memorise any verses. Because my son's ancestor spirits compose such verses, which could be done by only truly talented poets.

As a preparation for shamanic initiation for my son, I had made a shamanic deel (costume) which has open armpit, using very expensive silk. But when his spirits were summoned by his master, they have ordered to make totally different deel and other clothes by giving very specific details on how to make them. That is how I spent a good sum of money on useless thing. After that, I had made other deels and accessories for my cousin and for my own initiation, only then I understood that each spirit has own specific demands for his/her wearing. And this specific differences regarding clothes, accessories, weapons and rituals vary from clan to clan, tribe to tribe. My son's ancestors told me not to waste my time by reading books on shamanism when I was preparing myself to become a shaman. Even though that time seems to be wasted, I learnt that shamanism can not be approached as a static belief, there is no absolute right or wrong and no extremism should be applied to it.

It should be taken into account that due to diversity of shamanism, many people make it as a tool to make money. According to Khaan's message, everybody should strive for the enlightenment by widening and purifying own view on life, use different perspectives to decide on something, and be your own master. Individuals are the basic unit of the society, which shape families, and then families form the State, therefore individuals should educate themselves regarding the Tenger and his will. I was ordered to convey that message to each and every person on earth Mongolian, that is why I am writing all these stories. To raise Tenger educated individuals, every mother should sing lullabies to give love and compassion, and every parent should tell folk tales to strengthen the wisdom of their children. Today's children, who are the next generation of Mongolians, will be responsible for the rise and revival of Tengerism. Our generation will be written in future history for evaluating the current situation and commencing an outstanding endeavour to spread the words and wills of Tenger, starting the changes from themselves. This amazing Mongolian wisdom, which Khaan has ordered to spread, entails all the knowledge of art of living, of mastering over own destiny, and of ways to reach enlightenment through which all the evils will be destroyed. Because this wisdom had endured the test of time and inherited to us from generation to generation.

As a product of socialist ideology which taught “everybody, since the childhood, has to...”, I was a real atheist and never believed in anything before touching by hand. I had been living average life, cried and laughed just like others. But, all of sudden, I have become a medium of Tenger and writing my own history... Now I have different lens to look at life. While taking a breath, I really can feel the air, and while drinking water, I deeply appreciate its value. I feel deep love towards my surrounding environment, because now I know that sun and moon, mountains and clouds, flowers and trees, all have souls and spirits, and I can talk with them. Tenger has own spirit and when he talks to me, I can not stop my tears, because I really feel his love. Ignoring my age, now I can play with my father and other great grandparents whom I never saw. Because I can feel their love and affection towards me.

After feeling and sending so much love and affection back and forth, I noticed that I have got changed a lot within. My anger was reduced so much that I feel now lot more happier. Because I know that after my death, I will return to earth in the form of spirit and would be calling some old lady as my child. I witnessed that spirits do return to earth to protect his/her children because of their love. Just like my own ancestors, I would be having the same feelings for my offspring. And that is why I truly believe in my ancestors and will of Tenger... (to be continued)