...Since
that day, different universe had opened its door to me and I am still
struggling to learn and understand about it. I had no idea how sacred
was the bloodline for a person. Because I grew up with only one
grandmother and barely knew the other one. About grandfathers, I had
no idea who they were. Out of somewhere, many unknown spirits, whose
names were only on history textbooks, had come out and declared
themselves to be my ancestors. And I tried my best to follow what
they told me to do. Suddenly, one day, another spirit came to me and
asked “Who is your Great Khaan of Mongols?”. When I answered his
name was “Chinggis Khaan”, that spirit told me “then I am that
Khaan. From now on, I will be your second head spirit”. With great
awe. I asked him “then what should I prepare to welcome you? What
kind of throne do you want?”. To my surprise, he simply told me
that “I am not here to eat and drink, or to enjoy your admiration.
But I am back to deliver the will of Tenger”.
I
think such time will come to the history of mankind. Everybody has to
feel and accept the Tenger, the Truth, the real son of Tenger, and
his immeasurable power. Who is the real owner of the earth? Is it
human beings? NO. Those whoever breaks the divine law of nature,
will face the rightful judgement of heaven. Others who follow the
path shown by Tenger will deserve the merit. Since I become a host
for Great Khaan's spirit, my whole life had been changed 180 degrees.
He taught me totally different ethics, moral values and disciplines.
What he did was exact opposite of what I imagined about shamans
earlier. He ordered me to throw out all vodkas and “hadag”(piece
of long linen, usually blue ones are used in Mongolia)s. He taught me
how to consult with Tenger, Sun, Moon, Stars, King of Hell, King of
Mountains and Naga King in order to solve the big deals. All other
rules and regulations I have heard and seen related with other
shamans were not there, they were not applicable to me. I was allowed
to touch red meat and others, I was not required to do the Mountain
rituals etc. And all these things have made me to realise what the
word “Khaan” (King) means. Khaan title is given to those special
ones who can do everything on his own, who can lead others by his own
example, but it does not mean to have authority to employ others and
treat them badly. I am really pampered by this special right and
thankful to our Khaan for making me his host, the special shaman,
not an ordinary shaman. Only through his presence, now I have special
power and title granted by Tenger, which equals to the one of King,
and have no restrictions except a few.
Since
I am a new shaman, who was initiated a few months ago, I had many
chances to witness the extraordinary power of great spirits and I
sincerely appreciate and respect my Ancestors and the Will of Tenger.
I know without their help, my physical body is simply not able to
perform such tasks. Despite of their immense wisdom and power, they
always remind me to be humble. I learn how to behave properly from my
Khaan. As days pass, I realise what a great (heavy) responsibility
was given to me by Tenger and by my ancestors. I am the main
responsible person to carry out their heritage and tasks.
There
is a saying that “Shaman's summons are varied just as rabbits jump
in different lengths” and I realise how true is this. Every human
being have distinct characters and interests, and similarly, every
clans and tribes have their own traditions and values. Since my son
became a shaman, I started reading about the shamanic traditions.
Even I demanded my son to read and learn from those books. When he
ignored my request to memorise some chanting verses, I told about it
to his master. The response from the master astonished me. He said
there is no need to memorise any verses. Because my son's ancestor
spirits compose such verses, which could be done by only truly
talented poets.
As
a preparation for shamanic initiation for my son, I had made a
shamanic deel (costume) which has open armpit, using very expensive
silk. But when his spirits were summoned by his master, they have
ordered to make totally different deel and other clothes by giving
very specific details on how to make them. That is how I spent a good
sum of money on useless thing. After that, I had made other deels and
accessories for my cousin and for my own initiation, only then I
understood that each spirit has own specific demands for his/her
wearing. And this specific differences regarding clothes,
accessories, weapons and rituals vary from clan to clan, tribe to
tribe. My son's ancestors told me not to waste my time by reading
books on shamanism when I was preparing myself to become a shaman.
Even though that time seems to be wasted, I learnt that shamanism can
not be approached as a static belief, there is no absolute right or
wrong and no extremism should be applied to it.
It
should be taken into account that due to diversity of shamanism, many
people make it as a tool to make money. According to Khaan's message,
everybody should strive for the enlightenment by widening and
purifying own view on life, use different perspectives to decide on
something, and be your own master. Individuals are the basic unit of
the society, which shape families, and then families form the State,
therefore individuals should educate themselves regarding the Tenger
and his will. I was ordered to convey that message to each and every
person on earth Mongolian, that is why I am writing all these
stories. To raise Tenger educated individuals, every mother should
sing lullabies to give love and compassion, and every parent should
tell folk tales to strengthen the wisdom of their children. Today's
children, who are the next generation of Mongolians, will be
responsible for the rise and revival of Tengerism. Our generation
will be written in future history for evaluating the current
situation and commencing an outstanding endeavour to spread the words
and wills of Tenger, starting the changes from themselves. This
amazing Mongolian wisdom, which Khaan has ordered to spread, entails
all the knowledge of art of living, of mastering over own destiny,
and of ways to reach enlightenment through which all the evils will
be destroyed. Because this wisdom had endured the test of time and
inherited to us from generation to generation.
As
a product of socialist ideology which taught “everybody, since the
childhood, has to...”, I was a real atheist and never believed in
anything before touching by hand. I had been living average life,
cried and laughed just like others. But, all of sudden, I have become
a medium of Tenger and writing my own history... Now I have different
lens to look at life. While taking a breath, I really can feel the
air, and while drinking water, I deeply appreciate its value. I feel
deep love towards my surrounding environment, because now I know that
sun and moon, mountains and clouds, flowers and trees, all have souls
and spirits, and I can talk with them. Tenger has own spirit and when
he talks to me, I can not stop my tears, because I really feel his
love. Ignoring my age, now I can play with my father and other great
grandparents whom I never saw. Because I can feel their love and
affection towards me.
After
feeling and sending so much love and affection back and forth, I
noticed that I have got changed a lot within. My anger was reduced so
much that I feel now lot more happier. Because I know that after my
death, I will return to earth in the form of spirit and would be
calling some old lady as my child. I witnessed that spirits do return
to earth to protect his/her children because of their love. Just like
my own ancestors, I would be having the same feelings for my
offspring. And that is why I truly believe in my ancestors and will
of Tenger... (to be continued)
